Word Count: 215
Rating: PG-13
Category: Angst
Notes: OoTP SPOILER WARNING. And I just wrote this after walking around the damn freezing city on Christmas Eve, and I wanted to contribute a Christmas fic to the HP fandom.  Thanks to Dementor Delta and Pastles for the beta job.
Summary: Remus walks around thinking of Sirius.
Pairing: Sirius Black/Remus Lupin
Warnings: Slash
Dedications: None
Completed Date: December 24, 2003

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It’s Christmas Eve, and I am walking around the city of London at night. The lights from the passing cars and the streetlamps are glaringly bright as I walk down the streets. The noisy cars driving by leave a cacophonic atmosphere.

People pass by me; I never acknowledge them, and they never acknowledge me.

The fog this late at night is making the scenery look ominous. The weather is frigid, but I do not feel the coldness at all.

Even in a big city, I feel alone and immune to the sights and events around me.

I miss you, Sirius. The world seems so different without your presence. Ever since you went to another realm when you passed through that veil, I realise how much you mean to me.

Click on the image for the larger version. Fanart by Tokki-Chan.

As I breathe out, the smoky aftermath reminds me of your smoking habits. I’ve always badgered you about quitting the disgusting habit, but now I even miss that.

I see couples holding hands together and kissing, and I recall all the affections we shared and the times we made love.

And now you are gone.

Why did you leave me?

I look at the empty space in front of me, and it really hurts for me to say this:

Happy Christmas, Sirius, wherever you are now.